Abit on me and a Question to people... NOT PART 5

Just 1 quick question...
Who wants me to continue blogging?
At this point in time.. I really dont want to continue the story...
But if you have a good reason for me to continue... then tell me
Leave a comment and I'll read it.
Dont have to put your name if you dont want to...

I'll Just do 1 quote :)

"In life when we feel we have reached a limit, that is when the true battle begins.
Just when you despair and think it is impossible to go any further, will you become apathetic,
or will you say it's not over and stand up with an unyielding spirit?
The battle is decided by this single determination. "

Man... At times I really wished people would see this...
Everyone has their limits.. I know...
Ive hit mine a couple of times this year...
Sure I felt like giving up... and for a brief period of time... I did give up.. but I got up.
Somehow I'm still striving for some kinda of conclusion..
It is true that it is the hardest battle ever..
Hope is the determination within someone...
Even if your being pushed down time and time again... Get up.. Its not the end..
The battle isnt lost until you give up.. When will people realise this...
If you believe its over.. then it is over...
If you dont try.. nothing will be achieved..
Its all in the mind when it comes to determination...
Many battles have been won just based on the soldiers will!
They believed they had a fighting chance to win even in the face of certain death..
Battles... both physically and mentally..
Victory is determined by your choice to strife for it.


Just abit of me now.. :
You can say that your trying hard to make things work... but on the inside.. you dont actually believe it is possible for it to ever work...
If you dont believe in it... Why bother trying?
Seriously Why?
Why do you give other people hope that it might work..
But you already know its never going to happen..
Why do that to somebody?
Why did you give up? Tell me why...
You shut that door to your heart long before it ended...
How could you expect me to fix things.. when you never let me in..

I never gave up on you... I never...
And I still haven't...
Things have been going from bad to worse..
You cannot say I didnt try...
I tried so hard... I wanted you so much..
You once said that what we had was real...
But you didnt even try to get it back when it was lost...
How can you find something without even looking for it...
You gave up... What was i supposed to do..
You were the key to everything..
I cant fix you... Only you can fix yourself...
You dont see that... So you left...

You left me...

fending off all the confusion.. All the lies... all these tears..
you got on with your life...
but you dont care about the people you've left behind..
You say your willing to help..
yet all you do is avoid the questions..
You knew I was broken..
I told you that you were the only one who can fix this..
But you didnt care...
Cause you dont know how it feels like.. You have never been in this position...
You dont even try to understand..
I still try to get the answers... trying so hard..
I want to get on with life without this running through my brain..
Filling my head with these sad thoughts of you...
I have limits...
Stop pushing me to them...
Everyday is a challenge for me already..
Im still waiting...
You owe me soo much... Yet you couldnt even make the effort to see me eye to eye to fix this..
And yet you expect me to wait even longer when your the reason why it isnt happening..
You expect me not to get mad when your the one delay this...
All just because you dont want to bring things back up??
Just because youve gotten on with life and replaced everything we had already...
Well I havent!
I dont have anyone who could have taken your position..
I dont have people queued to take your place..
There is no one to replace you..
You were the only person I ever opened up completely to...
But you will never know that..

I know I was easily replaceable in your life..
Thats why I tried so hard to not lose you..
My Greatest Fear... Was Losing you...
Why do you treat me this way?
What have I done to deserve being worth nothing in your life!?
WHAT HAVE I DONE!?!?
Me getting mad at you for treating me like im just another person to push around??
How can you get mad at me for reacting to the way you treated me!?
You know well enough your the cause of all this...

You Ended it...
You Lied to me..
You Kept secrets from me..
You Left me...
You Dont even care for me...
You Say your sorry.. yet you do it again..
You Dont even respect me..
You Expect me to sit and be pushed around!?

Just because I dont speak out... doesnt mean it doesnt effect me...
I dont say things out in person cause I dont want you to see me in tears...
But if your going to treat me like a pile of shit...
Its time you hear what I have to say..
If your afraid to face me.. Then say so.. Dont hide it...
Cause Im afraid to even say thhe things I have to say..
All you know is that I need answers...
But theres so much more..
I need you to hear somethings I have to say...
Theres so many things.. You dont understand...
And till the day you hear me out... You'll never understand.. and the fights will never end..




Its just unfair..
Life is unfair...
The world doesnt change when no one tries to make a difference..
But we all know you cant change somebody...
"If you wanna make the world a better place... take a look at yourself and make a change"
R.I.P Michael Jackson