Okay.. this is just something I felt like posting!
David Choi.. Is the man!!
Love his songs!
Heard this song once and I downloaded his whole album!
I even learn guitar for the first time just to play it!
Absolutely loved it!
U want his album?
Of course!!
Oh whats this link underneath?
*EDIT!*
New link! in 320kbps! HERE!!!
Hmmm might be a link to download his album.. errr Whoops? =P
GET IT!!!
And then go study!! AHHHH exams meh...
Ash,
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Life taken from a Different point of view.. A view point from a game o___O
Okay...
Gonna try this..
You might find this a little ODD..
But hey!
something different?
If you don't know already..
Ive just started line riding again..
What is line rider u may ask?
Its a Game!
where u draw lines for a little guy on a sled for him to ride on!
hence the name :P
Here's the game if your really curious =D
Have fun trying that :P
And here's a vid I made a few days ago..
Note: its undrawn so the details aren't finished...
I'll update it soon!
*UPDATE!
Its FINISHED =D
Okay! Now for the real reason for this weird post..
A friend of mine asked me how awesome it would it be to be that dude on the sled..
And I reckon it looks flipping wonderful! trill of a lifetime..
Then tonight..
I just started thinking about it..
In a way.. its kinda like life..
Say YOU are on the sled..
And you are the artist at the same time.. drawing up the lines which shape up our lives..
the lines are like time lines! You travel on them going your way..
The speed you travel represents the quick pace life seems to be at times..
and The gradients of the lines represents how our moods are in line..
Uphill to show level of happiness...
Downhill to show level of sadness..
Now bear with me on this complicating topic! >.< Striaghts
The straight lines are our daily routines in life. its simple, straight forward, doesn't change your mood up and down significantly to be noticeable.. Yet its still a part of life and we move along just as we are..
Now... The curves..
It is said that something negative will happen before something good will come...
Its the same thing here..
You cant just rise yourself up to steeper hills without the speed..
You would just slide down in disappointment..
We go down the steep hill.. bad things happen..
and just as you think its never going to end..
It changes!
You see yourself skyrocketing out of the valley and enjoying it!
And as we all know... it doesn't last..
Even in the world of animated physics.. We lose momentum and start to slow down..
We may not fall but the mood dies out..
If we continue the steep route up you will fall.
Positive & Negative Jumps/Drops
Here's the part that should relate to most people...
Jumps..
Its like the best feeling in the world! Feeling amazing!
Maybe you had a wonderful time with friends..
You get the idea..
But sometimes.. Jumps aren't always a good thing...
I'm sure we all learn parabolas...
And in physics... everything that goes up..
Must come down...
Sometimes in life we jump so high.. We are in a illusion that we will always continue gaining ground..
but.. when we reach the maximum distance... we start to fall..
We all hope to land on another line early on before we fall further..
But that's not usually the case..
We fall deep.. and far down..
The Lows in life I suppose...
Just so everyone knows..
Life is a never ending journey..
Same can be said in the game..
He will fall forever.... But his story never ends..
It also means that we will fall forever till we make the decision to save ourselves!
When the drop in life comes..
Catch yourself...
You cant just put your foot down with a straight horizontal line...
Its just impossible to get on with normal life straight away when you've fallen so fast..
You'll crash and fall off!
It becomes too hard to get back on your 'sled' (Vehicle of life?)
You take it slow..
You slowly make your way from that vertical fall and slowly pull yourself out of there.
There will always be a horizontal line in every fall in life..
(meaning there will always be a way to pick yourself up again)
You may say that someone might have helped you...
Yes they did help you.. But It was still YOUR decision in accepting their help!
Knowing that there's always a time where your brought back up to a straight line..
Being able to get on again.. in a forward direction..
Doesn't it just make you hope?
Move forwards always..
The line rider guy cant look back..
And neither should we.. The past is the past!
Look to the future and make the best of it..
Its the ride of our lives..
The only one we get on this earth..
We go through the up and downs throughout our entire lives! So don't ever give up..
Draw your own future with the decisions you make..
Even at times where u feel like your going in circles..
Find away to break out and move on..
Okay this has been one of the hardest posts ever...
Cause I don't know if you readers understand the game as I do..
Give it a try and maybe you'll be able to relate with what I have said alot easier..
Yes I know I'm weird in many levels..
But hey.
Who likes being Normal!? =P
Stay tuned!!
I have a series planned! Dont know when im gonna do it.. Maybe after the FINAL exams...
No time >.<
Gonna try this..
You might find this a little ODD..
But hey!
something different?
If you don't know already..
Ive just started line riding again..
What is line rider u may ask?
Its a Game!
where u draw lines for a little guy on a sled for him to ride on!
hence the name :P
Here's the game if your really curious =D
Have fun trying that :P
And here's a vid I made a few days ago..
Note: its undrawn so the details aren't finished...
I'll update it soon!
*UPDATE!
Its FINISHED =D
Okay! Now for the real reason for this weird post..
A friend of mine asked me how awesome it would it be to be that dude on the sled..
And I reckon it looks flipping wonderful! trill of a lifetime..
Then tonight..
I just started thinking about it..
In a way.. its kinda like life..
Say YOU are on the sled..
And you are the artist at the same time.. drawing up the lines which shape up our lives..
the lines are like time lines! You travel on them going your way..
The speed you travel represents the quick pace life seems to be at times..
and The gradients of the lines represents how our moods are in line..
Uphill to show level of happiness...
Downhill to show level of sadness..
Now bear with me on this complicating topic! >.< Striaghts
The straight lines are our daily routines in life. its simple, straight forward, doesn't change your mood up and down significantly to be noticeable.. Yet its still a part of life and we move along just as we are..
Now... The curves..
It is said that something negative will happen before something good will come...
Its the same thing here..
You cant just rise yourself up to steeper hills without the speed..
You would just slide down in disappointment..
We go down the steep hill.. bad things happen..
and just as you think its never going to end..
It changes!
You see yourself skyrocketing out of the valley and enjoying it!
And as we all know... it doesn't last..
Even in the world of animated physics.. We lose momentum and start to slow down..
We may not fall but the mood dies out..
If we continue the steep route up you will fall.
Positive & Negative Jumps/Drops
Here's the part that should relate to most people...
Jumps..
Its like the best feeling in the world! Feeling amazing!
Maybe you had a wonderful time with friends..
You get the idea..
But sometimes.. Jumps aren't always a good thing...
I'm sure we all learn parabolas...
And in physics... everything that goes up..
Must come down...
Sometimes in life we jump so high.. We are in a illusion that we will always continue gaining ground..
but.. when we reach the maximum distance... we start to fall..
We all hope to land on another line early on before we fall further..
But that's not usually the case..
We fall deep.. and far down..
The Lows in life I suppose...
Just so everyone knows..
Life is a never ending journey..
Same can be said in the game..
He will fall forever.... But his story never ends..
It also means that we will fall forever till we make the decision to save ourselves!
When the drop in life comes..
Catch yourself...
You cant just put your foot down with a straight horizontal line...
Its just impossible to get on with normal life straight away when you've fallen so fast..
You'll crash and fall off!
It becomes too hard to get back on your 'sled' (Vehicle of life?)
You take it slow..
You slowly make your way from that vertical fall and slowly pull yourself out of there.
There will always be a horizontal line in every fall in life..
(meaning there will always be a way to pick yourself up again)
You may say that someone might have helped you...
Yes they did help you.. But It was still YOUR decision in accepting their help!
Knowing that there's always a time where your brought back up to a straight line..
Being able to get on again.. in a forward direction..
Doesn't it just make you hope?
Move forwards always..
The line rider guy cant look back..
And neither should we.. The past is the past!
Look to the future and make the best of it..
Its the ride of our lives..
The only one we get on this earth..
We go through the up and downs throughout our entire lives! So don't ever give up..
Draw your own future with the decisions you make..
Even at times where u feel like your going in circles..
Find away to break out and move on..
Okay this has been one of the hardest posts ever...
Cause I don't know if you readers understand the game as I do..
Give it a try and maybe you'll be able to relate with what I have said alot easier..
Yes I know I'm weird in many levels..
But hey.
Who likes being Normal!? =P
Stay tuned!!
I have a series planned! Dont know when im gonna do it.. Maybe after the FINAL exams...
No time >.<
Sunday, August 16, 2009
The End? I hope so..
Well guys..
At this point of time.. I can almost safely say the drama is finally over..
There just had to be an end..
And I made the decision for this ultimatum..
It just couldnt go on anymore..
Lets just put it this way..
You broke my heart..
Then expected me to understand without any explanation..
You moved on within a week..
You time and time again lied straight to my face and expected me not to get mad at you..
You said you will try so many things..
None of which has been seen to the end..
You said you believed you were treating me like a good friend..
And yet you get mad at me for being honest about how I felt..
How can I possibly stand here and do nothing while your on the road to destruction..
I tried to help.. At least I can say I did..
But I cant help you.. If your going to be so stubborn and uptight about every little thing..
Even the truth is oblivious to you.. Cause you "Honestly Dont Care"..
So I had to end this...
You even forgot the last thing you said to me..
I asked for an answer..
You still havent given me one..
Which you said in your very last words.
"I Will"
You went back on your word.. Again..
If that absolutely meant nothing to you then just go..
Get out of my life..
You can go ahead and replace me.. I dont care anymore..
You and I both lost a friend..
but who gets the short end of the deal?
Only time will tell....
Scars - Papa Roach
-------------------------
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
"I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life"
At this point of time.. I can almost safely say the drama is finally over..
There just had to be an end..
And I made the decision for this ultimatum..
It just couldnt go on anymore..
Lets just put it this way..
You broke my heart..
Then expected me to understand without any explanation..
You moved on within a week..
You time and time again lied straight to my face and expected me not to get mad at you..
You said you will try so many things..
None of which has been seen to the end..
You said you believed you were treating me like a good friend..
And yet you get mad at me for being honest about how I felt..
How can I possibly stand here and do nothing while your on the road to destruction..
I tried to help.. At least I can say I did..
But I cant help you.. If your going to be so stubborn and uptight about every little thing..
Even the truth is oblivious to you.. Cause you "Honestly Dont Care"..
So I had to end this...
You even forgot the last thing you said to me..
I asked for an answer..
You still havent given me one..
Which you said in your very last words.
"I Will"
You went back on your word.. Again..
If that absolutely meant nothing to you then just go..
Get out of my life..
You can go ahead and replace me.. I dont care anymore..
You and I both lost a friend..
but who gets the short end of the deal?
Only time will tell....
Scars - Papa Roach
-------------------------
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
"I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life"
Friday, August 7, 2009
Curosity...
Im curious atm!
you see I know people read this blog..
But I just dont know who and how many!
I really wanna know who reads this...
I only know 4-5 people who reads this..
But ive heard stories of other people..
Tell me if its true!
Cause I dont know if I wanna post anymore till you show me who you are! :P
leave a comment and a name...
Muahah
Blackmail much?
PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT!! CMON!!
you see I know people read this blog..
But I just dont know who and how many!
I really wanna know who reads this...
I only know 4-5 people who reads this..
But ive heard stories of other people..
Tell me if its true!
Cause I dont know if I wanna post anymore till you show me who you are! :P
leave a comment and a name...
Muahah
Blackmail much?
PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT!! CMON!!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Onions..
Omg I cant believe im blogging this but..
its just something I came up with while cutting onions for dinner :P
A tad bit of poetry?
Onions...
They make us cry when cut..
Why so?
Onions are like a lost and broken soul..
Forgotten what their purpose in life once was..
Kept in the darkness of the earth..
Emotions hidden within a shell..
Cut them open and the pain is seen..
Shedding all the hurt to the world around..
Tears fall for the vegetable...
Separated in pieces its seen..
The bitter crunch as you bite down..
Juices which make your eyes water.
The smell gets worse with every bite and breath you take..
We see the true potential in it...
When given warmth and care..
The sorrow evaporates away..
All that's left is the itself..
Looking into the future..
Forgetting the past..
Epiphany..
A new onion is born..
No more hardships and sorrow..
Soft and Sweet it has become..
Happiness and joy is all that's there..
Spreading its love with its sweetness
Okay that was probably my first ever shot at poetry.. if it even made sense o.O
but give me some feedback!!
I don't know if it even makes sense..
tell me what you think.!
And Remember..
There's always Hope and Joy..
Just shed the Past and look forward!
Cause we are all just sweet in the end right? :)
its just something I came up with while cutting onions for dinner :P
A tad bit of poetry?
Onions...
They make us cry when cut..
Why so?
Onions are like a lost and broken soul..
Forgotten what their purpose in life once was..
Kept in the darkness of the earth..
Emotions hidden within a shell..
Cut them open and the pain is seen..
Shedding all the hurt to the world around..
Tears fall for the vegetable...
Separated in pieces its seen..
The bitter crunch as you bite down..
Juices which make your eyes water.
The smell gets worse with every bite and breath you take..
We see the true potential in it...
When given warmth and care..
The sorrow evaporates away..
All that's left is the itself..
Looking into the future..
Forgetting the past..
Epiphany..
A new onion is born..
No more hardships and sorrow..
Soft and Sweet it has become..
Happiness and joy is all that's there..
Spreading its love with its sweetness
Okay that was probably my first ever shot at poetry.. if it even made sense o.O
but give me some feedback!!
I don't know if it even makes sense..
tell me what you think.!
And Remember..
There's always Hope and Joy..
Just shed the Past and look forward!
Cause we are all just sweet in the end right? :)
Monday, July 20, 2009
Code Geass Opening Songs
I love these 2 Jap songs!!!
They sound great! and when i googled the lyrics..
Their just so amazing...
I cant even describe it!!
Just have a look!!
COLORS - FLOW
English Translation:
WORLD END - FLOW
English Translation:
They sound great! and when i googled the lyrics..
Their just so amazing...
I cant even describe it!!
Just have a look!!
COLORS - FLOW
| Original / Romaji Lyrics |
|---|
Jibun wo sekai sae mo kaete shimaesou na |
Kakusenu iradachi to tachitsukusu jibun wo mitsume |
Mayoinagara nayaminagara kuyaminagara kimereba ii sa |
Karappo datta boku no heya ni hikari ga sashita |
Miageta oozora ga aoku sumikitte yuku |
Mitasenu nichijou ni aru hazu no kotae wo sagashite |
Asahi ni hitori yawaraka na koe ni furimukeba |
Mabayui hizashi no naka futo kimi ga homoemu |
Miageta oozora ga aoku sumikitte yuku |
Kokoro wo fukinukeru sora no iro kaoru kaze |
English Translation:
Moments that seem like they can change both me
And even the world are always right next to me...
Gazing at the irritation I can't hide and myself as I stand stock still.
Despite my hesitation, despite my worries, despite my regrets, I should decide
With one word you've given me, my bewilderment vanishes.
Light shone in my once empty room
The sky I gazed up at is so blue and serene
I decided to open up a window that was shut
Moments that seem like they can change both me
And even the world are always right next to me...
Searching for answers that must be in the unfulfillable everyday
If I turn around towards the lonesome, gentle voice in the sunlight
You unexpectedly smile in the midst of brilliant sunlight
I'm about to open up a window that was shut
An existence that seems like it can change both me
And even the world is right in front of my eyes...
The sky I gazed up at is so blue and serene
I decided to open up a window that was shut
Right now, I sense here a moment that seems
Like it can change me and even the world...
Spread both your hands towards the light...
A fragrant wind the color of the sky blows through my heart
WORLD END - FLOW
| Original / Romaji Lyrics |
|---|
Sekai no owari de umareta hikari ima kaze no naka |
Kireigoto dake ja ikirenai |
Ubawareta no ha nanda? |
Everything is bright |
Kudakechitta yume wo asu no hate ni hibikaseru you ni |
Taningoto mitai ni waraenai |
Kachitotta mono ha nanda? |
Everything is crying |
Kudakechitta yume wo asu no hate ni hibikaseru you ni |
Daremo nakasenaide kaere mitasu kokoro ni mou nanimo ka mo koete |
Everything is bright |
Ano hi mita sora wo negai no saki he todokaseru you ni |
English Translation:
The light that was born at the end of the world
Is found inside the wind now
I cannot live with only beautiful things
I cannot heal with only kindness
What was taken from me?
What did I hear
In an unchanging world?
A song of color
Everything is bright
May the dream that was broken and scattered
Echo at the end of tomorrow
The light that was born at the end of the world
Becomes one with us inside the wind now
I cannot laugh as if it happened to someone else
I cannot wipe my tears away if it was only loneliness
What did I gain for my victory?
What did I hear
At the end of the war?
A cry of sadness
Everything is crying
May the dream that was broken and scattered
Echo at the end of tomorrow
The light that was born at the end of the world
Becomes one with us inside the wind now
Return to your fulfilled heart and don’t make anyone cry
Leave it all behind
Everything is bright
May the sky I saw that day
Be there at the end of my prayers
At the start of a new world, on a morning of creation
We shine pure white and become the wind now
Thursday, July 16, 2009
A note which is now.. Irrelevant..
This is just a note for myself...
A note of things to say to her when the time came...
but when the time truly came..
Everything had already changed..
But I'll just share this note.. (removing the names of course)
A note of things to say to her when the time came...
but when the time truly came..
Everything had already changed..
But I'll just share this note.. (removing the names of course)
The Note
Why I reacted that way.
I lost trust in you..
When you told me on Chinese new year that we had
to end it, my heart was confused..
You lied to me about sleeping.. You
gave away my love..
Threw away the respect and just forgot what trust was...
You left me helpless when u ended it...
I felt like everything was a lie..
Finding out 2 weeks later that you liked (removed) just made me think that
you left me for him..
Someone who has torn you before...
You may say that you found out you had feeling after it ended..
But I know that deep in your heart that isn't true...
You said you loved me... But I don't know what love means to you...
What does love mean to you?
To me love isn't just a feeling of wanting to be there with someone..
That's just infatuation...
To me love is the never ending need to care for someone..
Being there through the ups and downs of life..
Making that one person happy...
Even for the sake of your own hapiness..
Respecting one another..
Doing anything for that one..
And trusting everything to that person..
Did I not try hard enough?
I know I was all new to this... I did not know what to do...
I played it safe by not risking things...
I didn't want to lose you...
That's the only thing that kept me back...
You don't know just how much you meant to me..
Was it not enough to know someone that cared for you?...
To know someone that would have done anything to see you smile..
Make you laugh..
Someone that would never cheat on you..
Never leave you..
And never ever lie to you... I never lied..
Someone who actually loved you from the bottom of the heart?
I loved you...
Was I not enough..? Not good enough...
Not worth the effort...
Everything that mattered to me got lost that day...
I had my heart thrown back.. And I lost you...
You've never had anyone tell you that they didn't love you anymore...
You don't know what it's like to hear those words...
No amount of sorrys can soothe the pain of those words...
Only time..
But everytime I try and gain some ground back with you..
You just throw me down with more lies..
Hiding things from me..
Why would you do such a thing? To protect me?
Or to save the hassle for yourself...
Your were meant to be my friend...
My best friend...
Your meant to help me...
Not hurt me...
It felt like I was nothing to you..
Everything I say is taken by you like a pinch of salt..
You shut me out... You closed door to your heart..
The trust we had before the holidays just disappeared...
Where did it go?
Did you send it away to someone else?
Did I not deserve the love and trust?
Tell me... You said you loved me once... Why did you?
Out of pity?
(Blank here as there isnt an answer)
Well I fell in love with your... Your personality..
Your caring heart...
The way you speak.. Always happy.. Laughing...
The way your eyes gleamed when you smiled..
And when your heart was torn...
I felt the pain as well...
It was so sad to hear you cry...
In those moments Id just wish I could make everything better..
I also felt honored that you came to me...
I felt that you deserved better...
I thought I could be the one..
The one never to hurt you again..
The one you came to in the time of need..
The one you hold so tight where ever you may go..
The one who'd care for you..
To be the one you trusted....
To be the one you loved..
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Why do I care?!
She says she wants to live life by how she wants to.. and..
She says to me..
"Why do you care?!"
Why do I care?!
Now.. When I think to myself..
Why do I EVEN care....!?
There's no reason for me to..!
I get nothing out of it..! Only thing its done so far is get me hurt time and time again..
You know what..
If she wants to get hurt then so be it..
I tried to stop it but if she wants a crash course to pain then fine..
I guess the last lesson didn't mean squat since she obviously hasn't learned anything!
Same situation as before...
And it will end the same...
She even see's that.. But she doesnt care..
Cause this time she's prepared..
Think about this...
Why the hell would you put yourself in a position where you know someone is going to hurt you.. and just leave you in pain..
For the temporary happiness??
Sure everyone knows that nothing lasts forever..
But if you know for sure nothing good can come out in the end... and nothing you do can even influence or change the outcome..
Then why do you put yourself there??
Its like putting a loaded gun to your heart.. Waiting for the other to pull the trigger..
She says to me there are thousands of other girls..
Well maybe she should follow her own advice..
There are thousands of other guys who aren't assholes who would ditch her!!
I wish I had the kind of confidence to slap some sense into her..
But thats not me...
And its her choice to realise it..
You know why I want her to not learn it the hard way?
Cause I did...
I can say its the most fucked up feeling I've ever felt..
If just simple thoughts can break me down..
I don't even want to know what it will do when she's under the firing squad..
If you had a friend.. Your best friend..
And you knew he/she was going to make a huge mistake...
Would you try and stop it??
Even if it means destroying your friendship in the process?
Unfortunately I do believe that..
And thats exactly what happened..
I failed in changing her mind as well..
The irony of killing 2 birds with one stone..
I just screwed up two things...
Our friendship... and I failed..
And no matter how much I would like the outcome to change..
It never will....
Its times like this I ask myself why I bother being nice to people...
Getting nothing back is fine..
But given shit back.. Why do I truly bother?!
WHY DO I CARE?!
Cause if you knew just how painful it can be..
You know damn well you wouldnt want anyone else to experience it..
Even if they deserve it... It shouldnt happen..
Why do I care?!
Because I loved you...
But now after all these months.. Your just another person I once thought I knew...
So don't you dare say Why do I care!
If the same thing happened to me!
You wouldn't even put the time and effort into helping me!
You'd just let me get hurt!
Cause you never really cared for me that much..
(The past few months justify it)
Honestly..
Its clear now..
You never truly loved me..
She says to me..
"Why do you care?!"
Why do I care?!
Now.. When I think to myself..
Why do I EVEN care....!?
There's no reason for me to..!
I get nothing out of it..! Only thing its done so far is get me hurt time and time again..
You know what..
If she wants to get hurt then so be it..
I tried to stop it but if she wants a crash course to pain then fine..
I guess the last lesson didn't mean squat since she obviously hasn't learned anything!
Same situation as before...
And it will end the same...
She even see's that.. But she doesnt care..
Cause this time she's prepared..
Think about this...
Why the hell would you put yourself in a position where you know someone is going to hurt you.. and just leave you in pain..
For the temporary happiness??
Sure everyone knows that nothing lasts forever..
But if you know for sure nothing good can come out in the end... and nothing you do can even influence or change the outcome..
Then why do you put yourself there??
Its like putting a loaded gun to your heart.. Waiting for the other to pull the trigger..
She says to me there are thousands of other girls..
Well maybe she should follow her own advice..
There are thousands of other guys who aren't assholes who would ditch her!!
I wish I had the kind of confidence to slap some sense into her..
But thats not me...
And its her choice to realise it..
You know why I want her to not learn it the hard way?
Cause I did...
I can say its the most fucked up feeling I've ever felt..
If just simple thoughts can break me down..
I don't even want to know what it will do when she's under the firing squad..
If you had a friend.. Your best friend..
And you knew he/she was going to make a huge mistake...
Would you try and stop it??
Even if it means destroying your friendship in the process?
Unfortunately I do believe that..
And thats exactly what happened..
I failed in changing her mind as well..
The irony of killing 2 birds with one stone..
I just screwed up two things...
Our friendship... and I failed..
And no matter how much I would like the outcome to change..
It never will....
Its times like this I ask myself why I bother being nice to people...
Getting nothing back is fine..
But given shit back.. Why do I truly bother?!
WHY DO I CARE?!
Cause if you knew just how painful it can be..
You know damn well you wouldnt want anyone else to experience it..
Even if they deserve it... It shouldnt happen..
Why do I care?!
Because I loved you...
But now after all these months.. Your just another person I once thought I knew...
So don't you dare say Why do I care!
If the same thing happened to me!
You wouldn't even put the time and effort into helping me!
You'd just let me get hurt!
Cause you never really cared for me that much..
(The past few months justify it)
Honestly..
Its clear now..
You never truly loved me..
Monday, July 6, 2009
Jodeanne's Quote (Matthew 7:13-14)
Thanks for the Quote! I really appreciate it.. I like it too..
(from the bible as well.. Wow)
“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it." (Matthew 7:13-14)
I agree on this quote...
"wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it."
Pretty much saying.. Not to follow the crowd..
Dont follow everything everyone tells you to do..
It make work the first time.. but eventually its going to go so wrong...
Taking the easy route out of anything isnt the right choice often...
Everyone usually takes this way as its simple..
It gets you out without much hassle for yourself.. What could be better??
Why bother putting myself through hardship when in the end its still the same result for me?
But what consequences are there in taking the easy way out??
Do you neglect the past and just go on?
I guess maybe the past will come back...
And If you always have it easy.. How can u ever appreciate what you have?
You never know what may happen..
Like they say..
You never know what you got until its gone..
"Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it."
I guess by narrow..
It means by making your own choices?
In discovering for yourself the right thing to do...
Its better because you learn the reasons to why it must be done..
Sure its difficult..
But its the struggles we go through in life that shape us..
Sometimes taking the longer harder way around to get to the same destination is a better choice...
Through hardships.. We learn how to handle the things in life..
Know the wrongs from right..
Learn from our mistakes..
To think of it.. Thats what life is about isnt it?
Learning through experiencing the Highs and Lows of life.. having a broad mind about everything..
Taking in to consideration the consequences of actions before executing them..
Its understandable why few people find this narrow gate....
Its hard... Its really hard..
At certain points.. many give up..
But giving up completely destroys the progress you've already made..
Because you've travelled on this hard journey for such a long distance only to turn around, go back and take the easy way out...
Then what was the purpose of even trying?
If life was always simple and easy.. We would never learn anything..
"Only when you've been in the deepest valley can you know how magnificent it is to be atop the highest mountain."
President Richard M. Nixon 1913-1994
(from the bible as well.. Wow)
“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it." (Matthew 7:13-14)
I agree on this quote...
"wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it."
Pretty much saying.. Not to follow the crowd..
Dont follow everything everyone tells you to do..
It make work the first time.. but eventually its going to go so wrong...
Taking the easy route out of anything isnt the right choice often...
Everyone usually takes this way as its simple..
It gets you out without much hassle for yourself.. What could be better??
Why bother putting myself through hardship when in the end its still the same result for me?
But what consequences are there in taking the easy way out??
Do you neglect the past and just go on?
I guess maybe the past will come back...
And If you always have it easy.. How can u ever appreciate what you have?
You never know what may happen..
Like they say..
You never know what you got until its gone..
"Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it."
I guess by narrow..
It means by making your own choices?
In discovering for yourself the right thing to do...
Its better because you learn the reasons to why it must be done..
Sure its difficult..
But its the struggles we go through in life that shape us..
Sometimes taking the longer harder way around to get to the same destination is a better choice...
Through hardships.. We learn how to handle the things in life..
Know the wrongs from right..
Learn from our mistakes..
To think of it.. Thats what life is about isnt it?
Learning through experiencing the Highs and Lows of life.. having a broad mind about everything..
Taking in to consideration the consequences of actions before executing them..
Its understandable why few people find this narrow gate....
Its hard... Its really hard..
At certain points.. many give up..
But giving up completely destroys the progress you've already made..
Because you've travelled on this hard journey for such a long distance only to turn around, go back and take the easy way out...
Then what was the purpose of even trying?
If life was always simple and easy.. We would never learn anything..
"Only when you've been in the deepest valley can you know how magnificent it is to be atop the highest mountain."
President Richard M. Nixon 1913-1994
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Abit on me and a Question to people... NOT PART 5
Just 1 quick question...
Who wants me to continue blogging?
At this point in time.. I really dont want to continue the story...
But if you have a good reason for me to continue... then tell me
Leave a comment and I'll read it.
Dont have to put your name if you dont want to...
I'll Just do 1 quote :)
"In life when we feel we have reached a limit, that is when the true battle begins.
Just when you despair and think it is impossible to go any further, will you become apathetic,
or will you say it's not over and stand up with an unyielding spirit?
The battle is decided by this single determination. "
Man... At times I really wished people would see this...
Everyone has their limits.. I know...
Ive hit mine a couple of times this year...
Sure I felt like giving up... and for a brief period of time... I did give up.. but I got up.
Somehow I'm still striving for some kinda of conclusion..
It is true that it is the hardest battle ever..
Hope is the determination within someone...
Even if your being pushed down time and time again... Get up.. Its not the end..
The battle isnt lost until you give up.. When will people realise this...
If you believe its over.. then it is over...
If you dont try.. nothing will be achieved..
Its all in the mind when it comes to determination...
Many battles have been won just based on the soldiers will!
They believed they had a fighting chance to win even in the face of certain death..
Battles... both physically and mentally..
Victory is determined by your choice to strife for it.
Just abit of me now.. :
You can say that your trying hard to make things work... but on the inside.. you dont actually believe it is possible for it to ever work...
If you dont believe in it... Why bother trying?
Seriously Why?
Why do you give other people hope that it might work..
But you already know its never going to happen..
Why do that to somebody?
Why did you give up? Tell me why...
You shut that door to your heart long before it ended...
How could you expect me to fix things.. when you never let me in..
I never gave up on you... I never...
And I still haven't...
Things have been going from bad to worse..
You cannot say I didnt try...
I tried so hard... I wanted you so much..
You once said that what we had was real...
But you didnt even try to get it back when it was lost...
How can you find something without even looking for it...
You gave up... What was i supposed to do..
You were the key to everything..
I cant fix you... Only you can fix yourself...
You dont see that... So you left...
You left me...
fending off all the confusion.. All the lies... all these tears..
you got on with your life...
but you dont care about the people you've left behind..
You say your willing to help..
yet all you do is avoid the questions..
You knew I was broken..
I told you that you were the only one who can fix this..
But you didnt care...
Cause you dont know how it feels like.. You have never been in this position...
You dont even try to understand..
I still try to get the answers... trying so hard..
I want to get on with life without this running through my brain..
Filling my head with these sad thoughts of you...
I have limits...
Stop pushing me to them...
Everyday is a challenge for me already..
Im still waiting...
You owe me soo much... Yet you couldnt even make the effort to see me eye to eye to fix this..
And yet you expect me to wait even longer when your the reason why it isnt happening..
You expect me not to get mad when your the one delay this...
All just because you dont want to bring things back up??
Just because youve gotten on with life and replaced everything we had already...
Well I havent!
I dont have anyone who could have taken your position..
I dont have people queued to take your place..
There is no one to replace you..
You were the only person I ever opened up completely to...
But you will never know that..
I know I was easily replaceable in your life..
Thats why I tried so hard to not lose you..
My Greatest Fear... Was Losing you...
Why do you treat me this way?
What have I done to deserve being worth nothing in your life!?
WHAT HAVE I DONE!?!?
Me getting mad at you for treating me like im just another person to push around??
How can you get mad at me for reacting to the way you treated me!?
You know well enough your the cause of all this...
You Ended it...
You Lied to me..
You Kept secrets from me..
You Left me...
You Dont even care for me...
You Say your sorry.. yet you do it again..
You Dont even respect me..
You Expect me to sit and be pushed around!?
Just because I dont speak out... doesnt mean it doesnt effect me...
I dont say things out in person cause I dont want you to see me in tears...
But if your going to treat me like a pile of shit...
Its time you hear what I have to say..
If your afraid to face me.. Then say so.. Dont hide it...
Cause Im afraid to even say thhe things I have to say..
All you know is that I need answers...
But theres so much more..
I need you to hear somethings I have to say...
Theres so many things.. You dont understand...
And till the day you hear me out... You'll never understand.. and the fights will never end..
Its just unfair..
Life is unfair...
The world doesnt change when no one tries to make a difference..
But we all know you cant change somebody...
"If you wanna make the world a better place... take a look at yourself and make a change"
R.I.P Michael Jackson
Who wants me to continue blogging?
At this point in time.. I really dont want to continue the story...
But if you have a good reason for me to continue... then tell me
Leave a comment and I'll read it.
Dont have to put your name if you dont want to...
I'll Just do 1 quote :)
"In life when we feel we have reached a limit, that is when the true battle begins.
Just when you despair and think it is impossible to go any further, will you become apathetic,
or will you say it's not over and stand up with an unyielding spirit?
The battle is decided by this single determination. "
Man... At times I really wished people would see this...
Everyone has their limits.. I know...
Ive hit mine a couple of times this year...
Sure I felt like giving up... and for a brief period of time... I did give up.. but I got up.
Somehow I'm still striving for some kinda of conclusion..
It is true that it is the hardest battle ever..
Hope is the determination within someone...
Even if your being pushed down time and time again... Get up.. Its not the end..
The battle isnt lost until you give up.. When will people realise this...
If you believe its over.. then it is over...
If you dont try.. nothing will be achieved..
Its all in the mind when it comes to determination...
Many battles have been won just based on the soldiers will!
They believed they had a fighting chance to win even in the face of certain death..
Battles... both physically and mentally..
Victory is determined by your choice to strife for it.
Just abit of me now.. :
You can say that your trying hard to make things work... but on the inside.. you dont actually believe it is possible for it to ever work...
If you dont believe in it... Why bother trying?
Seriously Why?
Why do you give other people hope that it might work..
But you already know its never going to happen..
Why do that to somebody?
Why did you give up? Tell me why...
You shut that door to your heart long before it ended...
How could you expect me to fix things.. when you never let me in..
I never gave up on you... I never...
And I still haven't...
Things have been going from bad to worse..
You cannot say I didnt try...
I tried so hard... I wanted you so much..
You once said that what we had was real...
But you didnt even try to get it back when it was lost...
How can you find something without even looking for it...
You gave up... What was i supposed to do..
You were the key to everything..
I cant fix you... Only you can fix yourself...
You dont see that... So you left...
You left me...
fending off all the confusion.. All the lies... all these tears..
you got on with your life...
but you dont care about the people you've left behind..
You say your willing to help..
yet all you do is avoid the questions..
You knew I was broken..
I told you that you were the only one who can fix this..
But you didnt care...
Cause you dont know how it feels like.. You have never been in this position...
You dont even try to understand..
I still try to get the answers... trying so hard..
I want to get on with life without this running through my brain..
Filling my head with these sad thoughts of you...
I have limits...
Stop pushing me to them...
Everyday is a challenge for me already..
Im still waiting...
You owe me soo much... Yet you couldnt even make the effort to see me eye to eye to fix this..
And yet you expect me to wait even longer when your the reason why it isnt happening..
You expect me not to get mad when your the one delay this...
All just because you dont want to bring things back up??
Just because youve gotten on with life and replaced everything we had already...
Well I havent!
I dont have anyone who could have taken your position..
I dont have people queued to take your place..
There is no one to replace you..
You were the only person I ever opened up completely to...
But you will never know that..
I know I was easily replaceable in your life..
Thats why I tried so hard to not lose you..
My Greatest Fear... Was Losing you...
Why do you treat me this way?
What have I done to deserve being worth nothing in your life!?
WHAT HAVE I DONE!?!?
Me getting mad at you for treating me like im just another person to push around??
How can you get mad at me for reacting to the way you treated me!?
You know well enough your the cause of all this...
You Ended it...
You Lied to me..
You Kept secrets from me..
You Left me...
You Dont even care for me...
You Say your sorry.. yet you do it again..
You Dont even respect me..
You Expect me to sit and be pushed around!?
Just because I dont speak out... doesnt mean it doesnt effect me...
I dont say things out in person cause I dont want you to see me in tears...
But if your going to treat me like a pile of shit...
Its time you hear what I have to say..
If your afraid to face me.. Then say so.. Dont hide it...
Cause Im afraid to even say thhe things I have to say..
All you know is that I need answers...
But theres so much more..
I need you to hear somethings I have to say...
Theres so many things.. You dont understand...
And till the day you hear me out... You'll never understand.. and the fights will never end..
Its just unfair..
Life is unfair...
The world doesnt change when no one tries to make a difference..
But we all know you cant change somebody...
"If you wanna make the world a better place... take a look at yourself and make a change"
R.I.P Michael Jackson
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